Belated posting…but relevant: List for Kinky Santa

Dear Santa,

It’s me…Kitten. Just to say…I’ve been ever so good this year. It’s been hard and lonely…but I’ve got myself through. Even took myself to California as a precursor to the Year of Love rainbow sparkles boosting extravaganza that 2017 is expected to be…but in order to do this…I kinda need your help.

Having been blooming in the desert for the past 4 years…I’ve learnt a lot. In my function as an oasis, but what I also, in turn, need to grow. This year alone I have been able to become more forward in general but also specifically ask for what I want and need. Which then leads me to the following…I know you’re a good man and will help me out…especially since there’s a Unicon vibrator at stake!

I believe my community, tribe, resonance and visible-making kin are out there. My rainbow beings and my reflection hope for the future.

Pleasure, light and love.

Kitten.

Kitten’s list

· Daddy Dom
To help me with routines, being kind to myself and especially setting homework about my attitude towards self pleasure and tracking my cycle. Special interest in separating my sexually exploring middle from my non sexual little – reclaiming that part of my erotic development. But also the idea of being bred by Daddy is fucking hot.

· Pet handler/ wrangler
I don’t like the binary of D/s. I find it too limiting…I need the physicality…the threat of being overpowered and the releasing of the importance of words and verbal communication. And wrestling…I really enjoy being thrown about. For too long I’ve shaped my identity around being hypervigilant and clever and not around my senses. I want to let that go. To be forced to obey and surrender to my lust, framing the world through the inputs and delighting in my sensual nature.

I am built for pleasure, for taking and for ravaging. It’s time to lay aside logic and be moulded and shaped by the ache between my legs. And to bring the Pet Shop to life.

· Network of servicemen
This is covered in more detail in a separate post as I’m actively seeking to recruit. But I want a tribe of people to call upon at core parts of my cycle. Those not afraid of getting their red wings at certain times or fulfilling the biological imperative of life calling to life at others. I need to be serviced regularly, to delight in and own my high drive. And to work through my fear of worshipping cock.; to meld with others as part of our devotion to the cause or at events and fulfil my bucket lists rather than hide them away for a rainy day. I want sex in that rain and to let go and let them in.

· Forced lactation
The idea of breeding, fertility and being defined my biology excites and frightens me…but having had a few play experienced of forced lactation…its something I want to explore further. These breasts are made for nurturing and I want that deep rooted craving to be fed. To delve into the conservative nature of my past and transmute the fear of baby making into alchemical gold

· Dollification
I am female born, female raised and female framed. I want to no longer hide my curves away and am incredibly interested in the idea of hyperfeminization and dollification. To come back into my skin and feel comfortable there but then taken to the heights of objectification where all that matters is the contrast between the curve of my breast and the compactness of my waist.. To be your muse, your sex slave, the epitome of your desire. For it is in that I come home to myself.

· Race play – Sahib
It is only through contrast am I wholly visible. Being second generation Indian and off white passing…I often disappear. I am heavily drawn to race play and serving a white Sahib through the nature of my inferior breeding and function as a furthering of the labour force. Either as a brood mare, odalisque or if Sahib pleases manual labour but I also know where my strengths lie – as confidante or between my legs. But it’s been a long time since I was put in my place.

· Mentor/ disciplinarian
I need containing. I have survived what I have been through by being a whirlwind. I am intense and I know how to own that. But in the fact of containment, of self-assuredness, I melt. I want to be met, disciplined and captured.

· Mommy
I need a Mommy to brush my hair, tell me how beautiful I am and initiate me into the joys of being delighted in. To spank my bottom when I am not being precocious and turning myself down to fit into how other people see me. To walk with me in this path of being a strong woman and provide solace in time of need.

· Big sister types
I am the eldest child. A pioneer with no one to follow. And I desperately need space for my middle to be able to learn from big sisters how to please the boys and also each other. To not be afraid of cunt – my own and others and to please, pleasure and taste/

· Friends to do things with
I adore the videogames munch. I’m a terrible button pusher…but it was great to just hang out with kinky folks doing activities I enjoy. I am on a quest to find out what I like doing for the sake of doing it and so just having people to explore life with would be ace.

And finally…

· A unicorn vibrator.
A unicorn naturally needs a unicorn toy. And I tend to break mine…my pelvic floor is that strong…it happens. But as this exists…I want it.

Final note…

These are all fantasies rooted in the paramount security of emotional literacy, safe sex and my worth and humanity. I want to cultivate deep connections so as to surrender. There are people I believe out there for whom this does not need to be said…but as I am posting this publically…just to cover this. This process will not be rushed and yes I want it all, but my imagination is wide and I know I deserve it. Don’t we all get to wish for what we want.

Happy Kitten. Big love. Big heart. Big desire.

The Order of the Capers of Kitten – Network of Servicemen role profile

Wanted especially – Ringmaster General:

· Can be shared role or rolling.
· Keep Kitten grounded and emotionally processing. I’m not particularly good at being verbal during play so this is something I need homework in working on, especially also keeping my eyes open.
· Reminding me of my value and sacrosanct humanity. I can only let go into degradation once this is secure and stable.
· Being vigilant during group scenes. There is no space here for people to get carried away or break the rules. I need to trust.

All servicemen must be:

· Emotionally literate and respectful. This is all about self-care and the release of shame to boost the happiness quotient of the universe and spread rainbow sparkles.
· Not afraid of being physical and holding space for me to let go. I need to meld with people who know how to show up for themselves.
· Understand the importance of going slow and foreplay. This Kitten gets very wet with a licking and although my cunt gets quite demanding…rush in I get dry.
· Responsible – frequent testing and commitment to safe sex.
· Have some kind of belief system to bring consciousness to this social experiment.
· Adventurous journeymen to help me fulfill my bucket list and inspiring my writing material in the launch of the business next year.
· Commitment to servicing me at least once a month where possible, maybe more frequently.

Kitten’s favourites

· Special red wings duty – my drive is almost as high on my period as when I’m ovulating
· Understanding of releasing chronic pain. I’m more likely to head towards being your 3-hole slut if I’m not tense – especially in my jaw. Nothing comes by force – certainly not me.
· Tutoring me in putting on condoms. I kinda like the idea of being able to do that with my mouth
· Added incentives to help me track my cycle – hands on testing of my fertility and breeding fantasies material.
· Emergency call out bonuses – help me help you. Brave Kitten wants to do more booty calls.

How this all works?

With the right ingredients, anything is possible. Will be working on revised bucket lists over Christmas, but want to start getting a feel for people to join the Order.

The Order of the Capers of Kitten – Preliminary questing questions

1) Is there life outside the bedroom for you? What makes you tick?

I wear many hats and am heading towards setting up my own writing practice and several businesses. Socially, I enjoy karaoke, pool, bowling, theatre, movies as well as being touristy and scenic. I have an N64 and some board games. I enjoy reading, 5USA and travelling. I am especially partial to sunshine, autumn leaves and snow. I keep active; enjoy swimming and especially the feeling of running water over my skin.

I am a conversationalist. The best way to my cunt is through my ears, so show me your world. I also enjoy cuddles, wrestling, good food (especially chocolate, yes both types) and drink (a rosé wine girl at heart) and being taken roughly. Also deep philosophical conversations into the night, preferably by a roaring fire.

Ultimately, I want my band of merry men to cause chaos in the heart of Toryville so having things in common to talk about is essential. Social meeting is mandatory. My time is precious as is my safety. Being primal, I’m highly protective of my lair as any cat is.

2) Do you have any unsuspecting partners?

No, I have been solo poly for the past 8 years. My first priority is my relationship with myself framed with an absolute territorial attitude towards my space and my agency. As in I have the freedom to explore connections however they manifest, centred on mutual consent, safety and exploration. But I am ultimately looking for community, soulidarity and inspiration – hence the quest. Ethics are what drives me and although I dwell in the shadows and filth – being on the fetish scene for 8 years and kinky as fuck – there is no room for secrecy here. Ties that bind and tie me up welcome if freedom to play is given by those that matter to you. And no, I’m not submissive, I just like being thrown about.

I do not think this is the wrong place to be looking for depth and due process as the swinging scene is founded on rapport, social scene and thinking/ talking about sex. I have a high drive and know how to make use of it, but it’s the vibe that counts. Which although pretty words on the Internet go a long way to gauge rapport, I want to know the substance of you before we play. This is my creative inspiration at stake and so I need to know I can trust you.

3) Do you get tested regularly?

Yes, as part of my commitment to myself I go to the GUM clinic every 3-6 months as part of self care or more frequently if I have a higher period of partner turnover. I see being conscious about testing as a way of responsible adulting and expect people I am fucking to have similar principles.

4) Do you understand the importance of protected sex?

I’m not looking to birth actual children yet, just literary progeny. I enjoy the art of wrapping and skyns are actually quite pleasurable. The only time there have been problems is when the guy wasn’t hard enough and there’s always something you can do about that.

Protected sex is non negotiable. And it sets off an alarm if you even ask about barebacking.

5) Are you comfortable with period sex?

Yes, when I’m in flow I find that I have a secondary hormonal spike and I like to make use of that. Not to mention that sex is helpful for the back cramps.

I’m aware not everyone is comfortable, but sex is a messy business. I am charting my cycle, I know when my heavy days are and much prefer the actual state of being in flow to the expansive biological imperative of ovulation.

I’ve been tracking for 4 years now…I definitely know when to call on my band of merry men. Especially when they understand the emotional elemental shifts of the creative spiral.

Also looking for big sister types. I’ve been ever so good this year so I’ve had the ear of Kinky Santa. I don’t have a lot of experience with women…would love to know more about you beautiful creatures. And be taught how to please the boys more.

6) How do you like to boost the happiness quotient of the universe?

Creativity and fluidity run though my veins and they are cemented in the importance of equality and celebrating female sexuality. I do identify as a feminist and am committed to making the world not only safer but also emotionally literate. The personal is political and this quest represents my choice to enjoy the freedom and the privilege I have to be able to delight in my own happiness and lust.